.. aNoThEr BoRiNg DaY ..

wow this is becoming some sort of pattern or something .. so i didnt go to bed til 5 am because i had taken a nap, so it screwed up my scedule .. i woke up around 11 or so .. ate breakfast .. took a shower .. got online .. layed in my bed and cried for an hour or so .. got online .. played cards w/ the family .. and i was gunna watch the OC, but it was just re-runs which is really retarded .. and so now im online!! i really cant wait until christmas though! i need some new stuff .. but yeah .. ive been really down in the dumps lately .. i just cry for no reason .. well, i mean i have reasons, but i'll just start crying out of the blue sometimes .. its just soo hard being in a military family and having to move all the time .. its hard being separated from my boyfriend and my best friends .. there's no one i can really talk to here, like i could in germany .. and its also devastating because there's a slim to none chance that i'll ever go to germany again, unless my dad just wants to go for vacay one year or somethin .. im actually trying to plan a trip this summer or something .. bryan is moving back to germany this summer, which definitely sucks because he'll be ever more far away from me .. omg that means no more free phone calls .. man, that really really sucks .. i never thought about that til now .. errg .. but anyways, he'll be a senior next year and so i want to go for his graduation or prom or something .. that might just be wishful thinking though .. i hope i can make somethin work out though .. if i start saving up now, hopefully i'll have enough by the time he graduates or has prom .. but anyways .. thats about it for now .. i'll write more later .. xoxo lindsey kaye <3